Wednesday, May 15, 2013
Dealing in Deception
There is a person that I don't speak with anymore. I'm not bitter, although that is always the first thing that people think when they hear what has happened. People think that if I had forgiven this person, our relationship would be restored, I would be calling this person and chatting up like old times. There was a time where this relationship was the most important thing in my life. Deception tears things. It's destroys. When you forgive someone, that does not mean that you are immediately reconciled with them. It takes two. Even with God, there are those that choose the be outside the gates. There are those that choose separation. I don't know what EXACTLY that looks like, but I know God loves us too much to force us into a relationship with Him that we don't want. It takes two people to rebuild. It only takes one to destroy. As far as this person goes, the best thing for me to do is stay out of their life. If I go around them, there is a temptation for this person to control, manipulate, and deceive. I'm not giving them a chance. Not for me, but for them. They will have to answer for those actions. I use think just do right, and if they do wrong because you did right it's on them. Now I feel that doing right means not giving that person a chance to do wrong that leads them into self destruction or pain. It may mean letting people go. Not for you, but for them. In this situation, I know stepping back was the only option without falling into the lies. I've also found that the more light in me there is shining, the more the darkness hates it. The closer I got to God, the more this person has always seen demons on me. Times where I was really worshiping, they saw scars on my face. Now I'm getting closer to God, and people are bringing confirmation to that, and this person, from long distance, is seeing the same things. I'm getting closer to the light, and it's hard for them to see from the darkness they are in. I don't know what the point of this post was other than to just ramble about today.