Today in Church, Bob Jones shared an amazing word for us. I'm paraphrasing, so it won't be word for word what he said,but the word was that he saw something white. He said it was not a dream, he was awake this morning. He reached out and touched it. It shocked him, and it was made of wool. He asked the Lord what it meant. He said he wondered because you can't wear wool in the Holy of Holies, and you can sweat there either. The Lord told Bob that we had gotten cold. That we needed to catch back on fire, and that the wool was to warm our cold hearts. I'm sure it's up on the Morningstartv.com website if you want to hear it word for word and better understand it. If you're looking for it, look under Sunday Morning meetings, and they shared it right after the worship part of the service was over.
This hit hard for me with strong conviction, yet it was also very edifying. During worship, The Lord spoke to me and said "I've enjoyed your visitations. You visit me every Sunday, and sometimes daily. But they are just visits. If all you've given Me is visitation rights, who has custody over you? Who is your parental guardian? Custody with me means protection, custody with the father of lies means a jail cell. I'm not looking for a visitation, but a habitation. "
It was a call to deeper intimacy with Him. I've not been satisfied where I'm at and I've been starving for more. Both these words confirm that I need more and that my heart has been distracted because of the storm around me with all the blows and the people the enemy is using around me.
I once shared my desire for more of God with a youth pastor, but it was not very encouraging. I shared with him that I wanted to go out and raise the dead and be radical for God and just do the things the early church did. His reply was "You can ask for those thing, but you might never get them. God does not have to give you signs and wonders!"
I don't, and never have sought for signs and wonders. I've always sought God, and what my youth pastor did not understand was that those things were put on my heart by God as a result of my seeking Him. What my youth pastor also did not understand is that those things that I was asking for were already guaranteed to me. Through both personal words and also through the Written Word. Mark 16:17 is a seal that those things are for God's children. He does not have to give them to us, but He already has.
For me, a lot of the lack of the things I was desiring was only there to point out the lack of sonship I had with the Father. I did not understand I was His son, and that He freely gave me those things. I did not have to cry out for hours. I did not have to beg. Or fast, starving myself for months, or do anything because He gave them to me. For FREE. Every single one of my friends know I love a deal. If it's from a thrift store or with coupons at Bi Lo, you can count me in! But you don't get a better deal than what Jesus has offered us! We are adopted as sons of God, alongside Jesus, and capable of everything He did. Those things became evident in my life when I started walking in the custody of the Father.
Today's service really confirmed and makes me strive even more to have more of that fired burning inside of me. Let me burn!